Teacher Kendra

Yep, that was me for the weekend. My little brother has a math exam tomorrow (monday), and I don't think he knew anything. So, hopefully he'll remember everything that we went over. He's a smart kid, and I actually had fun once he sat down and I got him to focus (it took kicking my parents out of the house, removing all distractions from the room, and even covering the clocks!!) But I actually really liked it (which is a good sign since it may be the career choice of mine!).

There are just too many thoughts going on in my head right now to put them all here.

Pointlessness

You know what I've noticed, I think I like the short titles, I'm not big into really long ones. I wonder why that is?

Today I finally wrote my schedule into the calendar, and I definately got the freak-out urge. It's so scary when you see a ton of things you have to do, and you don't have time to do them all. I'm really scard. But I really just need to take this one day at a time. It'll be ok.

I can't wait for the weekend. I'm tired, and I want a break, but I have to do TONS of work this weekend. I seriously do. I know that I don't usually get work done when I go home, but I really don't have a choice. Two weeks from tomorrow I have an exam in Algebra and I haven't even opened up the textbook or looked at any of my notes. Ah, I'm freaking out here.

Ok, enough about school, I don't want to talk about that. Today was one of those crazy days where I didn't really do anything but school stuff, and my back hurts from sitting and studying.
My hand started hurting today, I kinda worried, it's my right hand too. I can't hurt my right hand, I would fail my classes! But I put ice on it, maybe that'll help, and rest too.

You know what, this is pointless, I'm really tired and I'm talking about nothing. I'm going to bed now.

Frusterations

You know that people believe that you aren't capable of getting a boyfriend when:

-Your mom and all your aunts and uncles pick someone out for you and threaten to introduce you to them
-Your aunt starts giving you tips on how to pick up guys (and I seriously doubt that she of all people would know anything about that)
-You have to revert back to imaginary friends/boyfriends to explain why there's an empty seat beside you at a wedding
-You have to remind your family that you haven't even turned 20 yet (Only two more months!!) , and you're not old, and they don't need to start worrying yet!!
-When ladies from church surround you and start discussing how much easier it would be if they could pick boyfriends/girlfriends for their children
-The only thing that people ever ask you is: "So, do you have a boyfriend?"
-And, when you promptly answer "No" to that question they need to know why not
-And, the only explanation you have for not having one is that all the guys at University are drug addicts or alcoholics (yes, I know that's not true, but it gets them off my case, cuz they sure don't want me dating people like that)
-Then, your uncle gives you places you can go to meet guys!!!! (as if I have time!)
-When you have to make lists like this to rant and you've gotten to point ten and you know that you can think of a hundred more things to say but you're getting tired of this topic!!!

Ok, don't mind me, I just think I've been to too many weddings lately, but praise Jesus that I'm done those for a little while!!! I'm really tired of this topic, see, my family's gotten bored. They are tired of winter and the only excitement that they can think of is to have a wedding, and apparently I'm getting to the top of the list for singles in my family. I know that they love me, but they're getting on my nerves, or maybe I'm just over tired.

Please, don't make comments consoling me about my present state of boylessness, I'm all right. That's the point. People don't seem to realize that. And please, the only thing that's more annoying than people asking if I'm dating anyone, is them trying to set me up with people, so how about none of that.

Anyway, onto a better topic, now that I'm done my rant. One of my roommates had some people over today, and they wanted to see our house, which is fine, but they also wanted to see our rooms, hmmmm, well, I haven't cleaned my room in three weeks, and It's getting pretty bad. There's no where to walk and I was quite embarrassed about them seeing my room, but, oh well, I'm a university student, what else do they expect?

Do you know what one of my favourite snacks is? Taco chips and salsa, always a good thing. Anyway, so I'm starting to ramble, a sure sign that I'm getting rather tired, so, I will be saying goodnight to everyone. Isn't it funny how I only write these things after midnight? I don't know how people can write during the day.

Oh, and Jen, we tried calling you on saturday, but you didn't answer your phone.

Thoughts

"Oh what a crazy tragic, sometimes almost magic, awful, beautiful life" - I don't remember who sings that song, or even if I got all the words right. It's funny how in one week (or not even) so many varieties of things can happen. Good, bad, sad, happy. I feel like my life is being pulled in so many different directions, it's like a roller-coaster ride (I know, as lame and over-used an example as it is), but that's really how I feel, it's like every second something changes (if only my mood). I just want stability. But at the same time, I know that if I got that I would probably say that my life is boring and nothing exciting ever happens. Will there ever be a good balance?

Tomorrow I get to go home, it's been three weeks. I'm so excited, I just want to be back home. I'm excited about the ride though, Lori, Marce and Me are all going to sit in the front seat. I like that, nice and cozy. It should be entertaining. There's only two weeks (???) until I have to sing in church. I'm getting really nervous, I just want to do well. It's too late to even be thinking of this, I need to pack, I promised Marce I would be ready tomorrow.

Night. Sleep.

To Be A Computer Wiz

I think that's probably the last thing I ever expected to be: a computer wiz. Well, sort-of, at least that was my job this weekend, computer wiz/hairdresser. I can't tell all the storys here, but I would probably say that this weekend was the real-life ocean's 11 (minus all the stealing). Marcia, Melissa, Rae, Robyn, Lori and me went to Joanna's wedding, and ended up running the whole thing, all with our own jobs. I'll let the other girls tell you their jobs, but I was the computer wiz/hairdresser. I had to run some powerpoint presentations and I don't know if besides the little bit we did in highschool I don't think I've ever even used powerpoint. And the projector didn't work and me and Joanna's brother had to figure it out. We had no idea what we were doing. It was really funny. Oh, and I had to do Lori's hair, cuz she couldn't do it herself (I'm sure she'll write something about this weekend, and that'll all make more sense).

I definitely learned something this weekend about being willing to help. We drove six and a half hours to be at Joanna's wedding and we ended up running the whole thing, hardly having time to enjoy it. But I guess sometimes we need to learn that it's not always about us. We didn't have a choice, it was either us doing this or the family, and I would never make them do this stuff. It's so important that we remember to put others before ourselves, and I was forced to take on an attitude of selflessness, and it's a good thing. What can we do for others?

To the six chicks in one car and the Ladies Christian Fellowship, have a great night.
If none of this makes sense, give me a call and we'll hang out and you can hear the most unbelievable stories that you might ever end up hearing in your whole night!

Exciting Days

Wow, I've had a really busy week. Tuesday was movie night, Wednesday I had to do my Physics lab all night, Today a bunch of people are coming over for night then tomorrow morning, bright and early it's off to Saskatchewan!!!! (either I spelled that wrong, or it's just a really weird word!) Anyway, Can't believe tomorrow is the day we're leaving to go to Joanna's wedding!!! So crazy. So many weddings. I think we'll be ok, six girls in one car for six hours, as long as the morning people don't start singing songs at six in the morning. Maybe wait till at least 8am to talk to me, and I'll be just fine!!!

AHHHHH, ok, one more exciting bit of news. I got an A in Algebra!!! I totally didn't expect that. I love unexpected surprises. I thought maybe a B, but this is way better than I ever thought I'd do. I'm sooooo happy. Such a good GPA booster!!!!

But, now it's time to get a quick hour of homework in before people start coming here.

Have a great weekend everyone!!!

Same Old Life

Oh I wish I had a life. Well, I guess I do, I just feel like I don't. I think I'm getting bored of the usual stuff. Go to school, so some homework, maybe go to a movie or something with people, or watch a little TV. I know, the semester just started and I'm tired of it already. Is that bad? I just wish.... I don't even know what I wish. I don't mean to sound like I'm complaining, I just feel very restless, maybe that's the right word: restless. I'm waiting for something to change, or to find some new hobby or something to add a little colour to this black and white world. I feel like I live the same day over and over and over. Each with slight variations, but pretty much the same, nothing new, nothing exciting. I don't know what's wrong with me.

One of my friends from Prov was over last night, it was great to see her, it had been too long. Then we went to a wedding today. Sarah's married, so hard to believe. I'm really happy for her. I had a really amazing experience there, the dude she married, Sam, I didn't really know him, but he was the Prez at school last year. In the receiving line, and he just thanked me for coming and mentioned that he had noticed me in the "audience" at the ceremony, and thanked me for being there. I thought that was really amazing, it was his wedding, but he still took time to notice the people that were there, and that he just mentioned that to me was really amazing. I don't know if I'm making any sense, but I'm probably similar to him in that way, I tend to notice people, but it really had never actually crossed my mind that you could tell people that you noticed them somewhere and it was good to see them there. I'm just blown away. I find it so hard to believe that even in the emotion and business of his wedding he noticed me and thanked me for being there. I think I definitely often treat people too often as if they're invisible. Not because I don't notice them, I'm very observant, it's very rare that I don't see people somewhere, I just might choose not to say anything. Anyway, I don't mean to treat people like they're invisible, it's not that they're not important to me, but it takes effort, and I'm tired. I get so used to university, where there's so many people that there's not possible way to see everyone or acknowledge everyone. It's easy just to keep frame of mind past the university. I can't forget how good it feels for someone just to say hi and that it's good to see them. How selfish we are, or at least I am, it's easier just to say that I'm tired and not acknowledge people than it is just to say hi. A small hi can go a long way.

So here's the plan

So, the plan is to do as many social activities in January as possible. Pretty much, just to do anything that involves people. I know that I'm going to get super busy again in February, so yeah, if anyone wants to do something, give me a call. I'm a little dissapointed with myself and how anti-social I was last semester, so I'm going to try to do better this semester. Ok, I think I'm going to help with dishes now, have a great evening!!

Hmmm, so long!!

It has been such a long time since I've talked to you guys. Sorry, I'm a bit distracted, Lori's pretending the green blanket is a Canadian flag (we're watching the Canada vs. Russia hockey game.... GO CANADA!!!!). Oh, Canada just scored!!!!!!! Yeah Canada!!!

Ok, well I'm back ummm, I don't remember what I was going to say. Had a good christmas break. Now it's time for weddings. Uhhh, who really wants to go to these things. No, I'm happy for them. School starts tomorrow. Yeah, I'm happy. Ok, well, I can't type and watch the game at the same time...so, I'm out of here!! Yes, I sure am ditching you guys for hockey!!