It's only Tuesday, and it feels like I've had 10 days of school in a row. I can't really see right now, everything is really foggy. I went swimming today, and I forgot to buy goggles again, so my eyes are killing me. But, after I was done school today, I went and bought a pair. I think it probably looked like the funniest thing ever. I found the goggle section (which I expected to be about 5 different choices), but I was definitely wrong. There was probably 50!!!! (no, I'm not exaggerating). So I stood there looking stupid for probably 10 minutes, then someone came to help me, she didn't really know anything, but I ended up picking up a pair (they look hilarious!!!) Meh, I don't really care, I look stupid enough attempting to swim, I don't think anyone will notice the goggles. Hmmm, I should go eat, I need to do homework, but you should be proud of me, I'm done my assignment that's due tomorrow, I just need to rewrite it! (this is a first).

I Smell It!!!

I had to laugh so hard today. Sorry in advance for those of you that didn't take physics with Mr. Martens, this won't be very funny for you. I was talking to Melissa yesterday, and we were talking about Physics, and how Mr. Martens would always say "I smell a right triangle!!" So, we laughed at the memory. Then, today I was in my Physics class and my professor said "I smell an integration!!" I had to laugh, all physics teachers are apparently the same (a little different math) but exactly the same. I guess we know now where Mr. Martens his line from!! I have a friend in physics now, I had to do a lab with her yesterday, I'm excited, I have someone to talk to now!! Now I only have one class left that I don't have a friend in!!

Free? I Don't Think I Know How.

"Joyful is the person who finds wisdom, the one who gains understanding"

~ Proverbs 3:13

I want to have the joy that comes with wisdom, I have so many questions, I wish that I could have all the answers. I guess I'll never have all the answers, and I can live with that, I just wish that I had the answers that would make things a little easier, but for every step forward I take it seems like I take ten steps back - things become more complicated and even more questions come up. Maybe that's why God wants us to have faith like a child. Things just aren't complicated for children, but for adults things just become more complicated and hard to understand, and I can't imagine that things will get any better as I get older.

So, how do we live that carefree life, one that is only worried about doing God's will, and not concerned about other things? How do I do that? How do we as people with a thousand things to do make God our priority? Even as I sit here and write this I'm constantly glancing at the clock, counting the minutes I have before I have to go to class. I can't just forget about all my other responsibilities. How do I balance everything?

I was just listening to this song, and I thought the lyrics went well (I especially like the bold part)

Set Me Free

By Casting Crowns

It hasn't always been this way
I remember brighter days
Before the dark ones came
Stole my mind
Wrapped my soul in chains

Now I live among the dead
Fighting voices in my head
Hoping someone hears me crying in the night
And carries me away

Set me free of the chains holding me
Is anybody out there hearing me?
Set me free

Morning breaks another day
Finds me crying in the rain
All alone with my demons I am
Who is this man that comes my way?
The dark ones shriek
They scream His name
Is this the One they say will set the captives free?
Jesus, rescue me

As the God man passes by
He looks straight through my eyes
And darkness cannot hide

Do you want to be free?
Lift your chains
I hold the key
All power on Heav'n and Earth belong to me

You are free
You are free
You are free

Close To My Heart

What a crazy weekend it's been. I think that I say that all the time. My life really does go from one crazy experience to another. But I guess that life would be boring otherwise.

I got to see dragon boat racing today, I think I want to do that one day, it looked really fun. This event was a fundraiser for cancer, I think I would want to join the breast cancer boat. My Grandma died from breast cancer, I've always wanted to do something to help with a cure. I don't know how many of you knew that. Maybe one day I can do a dragon boat race, that would be so cool.

I hope you're feeling ok Cherise. At least the worst part is over. I'll see you soon.

Firsts

Well, I had my first class today, I saw many people I recognized, but I decided that I'm just going to say Hi to all of them, and just get over the awkward "I know who you are, but do you know who I am?" Yep, so that's what I'm doing this year. I'm excited, the one class I had was good, love the professor.

Let's see, what else is new? You know, I think about all the things that happen to me "coincidentally" and I just can't help but know that it's not all random. I see people, and unless things are orchestrated by God there's no way that it would have happened. I've had many of those encounters this week...on the bus, in stores, at school....everywhere. It's seriously like one big orchestra, perfectly conducted by God. Hmmm, that's been on my mind lately.