Letting Go

I was watching TV the other day, and one of the characters said this: "The more I'm a part of history, the more I realize how much of it's already written. Let it go." By itself, this quote doesn't make that much sense, but the character that said it was the President (hence the history thing), and he was saying this to his son who was having serious issues (hence the let it go thing). I was thinking about this quote the other night, and I realized how true it really is. It's really easy to forget that God's in control of what happens, and (I believe) that everything happens for a reason (good or bad). I know I need to remember just to let things go more often (even as I write this I'm reminded of situations). Things happen, I do stupid things, other people do stupid things, people get angry...whatever, everything will be ok, we (or at least I) just need to let them go. God's in control of what happens, it's ok, everything will work out. God's taken me too far to abandon me now. It's way too easy to hold onto EVERYTHING, and beat ourselves up about them for a really long time. But, really, it doesn't matter. As a man named Jesus once said on a cross "It is finished". Everything has been taken care of for me. How quickly we forget all that's been done for us, only to think about what we feel we have to do all alone.

I Made It

I'm done. I survived. I'm done exams, I'm packed (well, almost, I just need to vacuum my room). I'm also very tired (I slept under 2 hours last night) and very hungry (I had two fruit to go today - but that one's my fault, I'm just too lazy to make food, I'm tired, and my Dad'll be here in a couple hours, and maybe he'll buy me some food). Hmmm, my room looks so empty. Sorry guys I'm to tired to write anything worth reading, give me a couple days and I'll break out in inspirational thought!

One Last Time

I have one more all-nighter and then I'm done school!!!! Ok, in 11 hours, I'll be done. I have so many funny stories to write, but I guess they'll have to wait!! Soon, so soon.

Thoughts of Summer

I've had a lot of time to day-dream these last few days, when I need a study break I just think of all the things that I can't wait to do once I'm done exams (our tv doesn't work right now, so I have no distractions). I think I decided that the thing I'm looking forward to the most is going camping. It's such a nice thought.....going to the beach, cooking food on a fire, relaxing, having nothing to do, but sit and relax. Oh, I can't wait. I can't wait to go swimming. I really love swimming. I think the plan is to go to the beach every sunday afternoon, and those of you that aren't working on sunday are more than free to join me (if it's not raining, I might pass on the beach thing if it's raining). I've sat inside studying enough this year, it's time to get outside!!! Tuesday's my last exam, I can't wait.

ok, time to get a couple more hours of studying in before my chemistry exam. Oh yeah, I'm free to play tennis whenever you guys are interested. I love tennis. (....getting lost in my day-dream...)

It's Summer!!

Today is the first day that it truly feels like summer. I'm sitting here studying, and the windows are open and I can smell people barbecuing!!! That means it summer. it's almost 5:30 and when I go outside, the sun still feels hot. It feels so nice. But, what really makes it feel like summer is that there's a chance of thunder showers tonight!!! That's my favorite part of summer. I love lightening!!

Well Marcia, it's just about 5:30, and I started studying at 2:30, and I haven't really had to take any breaks, I told you I'd be focused today. Studying is actually going well for the first time all week!! Praise the Lord, I needed this.

Exciting Opportunities.

So, I didn't really get any studying done today. I kinda figured that would happen, my parents came to the city today, and they wanted to see me. Anyway, we went shopping (oh I got a skirt and shirt for my cousin's wedding...my mom has stopped trying to find me a dress, she now realizes that I can't find ANY!!) Ok, anyway, we were talking about my little brother, and that I'm going to have to help him these next two months, he's not doing well in math, and I get to teach him!!! Actually I'm really happy about that. I need experience with teaching kids math, I was just saying that it was too bad that he's my brother, or else I could write it as volunteer experience for next year when I'm applying to the faculty of education. My mom just suggested that I try to volunteer at a school for the last two months. I hadn't actually thought of doing that, I know I don't know why I didn't think of it. Since I probably won't be working too much these next two months, it would be a perfect opportunity! Yeah, so I'm really excited. But very scared. I know, I want to be a teacher, but I'm still terrified that I'm going to screw up the kids and that they're going to fail because of me (I know, it's a little irrational). Yep, so that's all.

Have you ever gotten so tired (mentally) that you feel like you're going to fall apart? I mean physically fall apart, like your arm (or something else) is going to fall off? I know that sounds like the weirdest thing ever, it made me laugh at the thought, but that's how I feel right now, like my arms aren't connected to the rest of my body. Ok, so apparently I'm too tired to be writing things like this. Need to study more.

What Day Is It?

So, funny story. Yesterday I was sitting in church, and all of a sudden I thought: "AHHHH, today is April 11, that means my mom's birthday was yesterday, and I forgot!!" I even turned to Cherise and told her that. So, that afternoon I called home and said to my mom that I was such a jerk, I had forgotten her birthday, and I felt really bad. She says to me: "Kendra, my birthday's today". I was really confused. Her birthday's on April 10, and it was the 11th. So I told her that. She replies: "Kendra, TODAY is April 10, it's not April 11". I looked at the calendar, and yep, it was definitely April 10. Then she laughed at me, very much.

I was reading Ephesians today, and I read some amazing things that I think I had forgotten about, I'll leave you with a couple verses:

"I pray that from his glorious, unlimited resources he will empower you with inner strength through his Spirit."
~Ephesians 3:16 (NLT)
"Now all glory to God, who is able, through his mighty power at work within us to accomplish infinitely more than we might ask or think."
~Ephesians 3:20 (NLT)

God is amazing. I forget that way too much.

Yes, I do recognize the dude in the middle, and maybe the one on the left side.

So, Jeopardy is having an "ultimate tournament of champions", pretty much they just bring back all the amazing players since the game started and ultimately they want to see if any of them can beat Ken Jennings. Anyway, am I the only person that actually recognizes many of the previous players? I get laughed at every day becuase I usually recognize at least one of them. Jeopardy was part of my childhood, we used to watch it everyday during supper. I love it, I think it's my favorite show, it's a classic.

Sorry Marce, I tried to write a long one today, but I just can't think of anything exciting to say today....