Wondering

Wow, it has been ages since I've written anything. Things are pretty crazy. I'm going into my last week of student teaching for this year and I sure can't wait till I'm done! I should be planning what I'm going to be teaching this week (I'm teaching lots) but I just can't make myself. I'm so tired. One more week and it's spring break!

It's been on my mind the last few weeks, fairness. I definitely have a problem with things not being fair, or at least not seeming fair to me. I know that I shouldn't compare myself and my situation to others, but I just can't help it. Why does it seem like some people get everything? It's like everything they want to do just works out. Why doesn't God make everything fair? Why do people suffer because of this unfairness? I know that these questions in themselves aren't fair questions to ask, but that's just how I feel right now. Why do things that seem like they should work out, don't? Do you think we can mess them up, or do you just think it's because it wasn't God's plan? When is it my fault and when it it just not God's will?